Bad news guys: I think I might be contracting a case of Premature Senioritis!
Although I don't really know the depth of the feeling because I haven't started my senior year yet, I really feel lazy about everything. I approach every single project, work, or request with utter hesitance. I don't know if this is what it's supposed to feel like to be sixteen or if it's an extreme reaction/mechanism to stress about the upcoming Junior year, or what! Whatever it is, it's been getting me into a lot of trouble lately. For instance, I promised myself this summer to complete all my volunteer hours for a special college enrichment program I am in so that I wouldn't have to worry about it during the year. Now, I have been to the library this summer and I always left my house before going there with the intention of asking the librarians if they need any help with anything. However, each time I step through the doors, I run straight to the computers (or to the graphic novels section) and procrastinate all my time away, telling myself that it's okay for me to "take a break". That mantra has been what I've been living by since I finished one-fourth of the summer homework I was given from my future teacher.
It's strange how just a few weeks ago I was the anxiety-ridden, stressed out teenager I usually am. Yet when summer started, I just got all chill and crap. But everything feels great! I love not having to worry about how I'm going to finish an essay on the same night of a performance or a math final or anything else that is school related. I FEEL FREE! But I can't help feeling guilty because I know that in a few weeks, I will regret the freedom I have been giving myself because school starts NEXT MONTH and I haven't worked on much of my homework, like I said before. I know that everything will start to catch up with me and I can't bear to think about the consequences I'll suffer if I don't stop milling around...
Anyway, let's speak on the brighter side of the things I have done this summer:
I finished 3 books: The Crucible by Arthur Miller (school reading), The Giver by Lois Lowry, and Maus I & II by Art Speigleman.
To you avid book readers out there, this might not seem like much, but to me it's a lot. I don't usually spend a lot of time reading books because I never give myself time to do so. It feels really good and is especially self-gratifying when I finish a book because I am a scatterbrain (I've mentioned this before), so you know that I can't stick with one thing for a long time. Luckily, I forced myself to stick to one thing while reading these books and I realized that by doing so, I got a lot more out of than I usually do from most books.
Also, I want to say that my reading style is different. I'll pick up a book and power read the first few chapters and then put it down for a few days to ponder its significance and depth (or to just use the computer and play video games). Then I'll pick it back up and read non-stop for a while and repeat the aforementioned step. I am starting to get through most things that way...
Anyway, the books I read were really, really good. They were very thought-provoking, and inspiring. They made me think out some things and learn some things that I have never before imagined, thus I've obtained a slightly different eye to the way some things are in my life. One message I got from The Giver was that sometimes things cannot be changed and some things that may seem bad to one person is really just for the better and it sucks to know that nothing can be done to make it better. That's really the plot of the story (didn't I tell you I was bad at extracting themes from literature?) but that's some of what I got from it.
What I also did over this summer was buy (and download) some new books! I've been really into classics lately so I bought some good books, such as The Scarlet Letter, The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn and Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (I'm not really looking forward to that last one).
I've downloaded some cool books such as: The Unsocial Socialist. This one has gotten some bad reviews, but I don't have much to say about the book yet because I have only read a few pages of it! However, I am not always the type of person who has a strong opinion about things-- which is why I will not join Debate Club at my school. I am an easily swayed person too, but I think reading more has been shaping me into a person with a few opinions like I mentioned the books before.
I'll come back later to talk about the other books I downloaded. Thanks for reading!
Although I don't really know the depth of the feeling because I haven't started my senior year yet, I really feel lazy about everything. I approach every single project, work, or request with utter hesitance. I don't know if this is what it's supposed to feel like to be sixteen or if it's an extreme reaction/mechanism to stress about the upcoming Junior year, or what! Whatever it is, it's been getting me into a lot of trouble lately. For instance, I promised myself this summer to complete all my volunteer hours for a special college enrichment program I am in so that I wouldn't have to worry about it during the year. Now, I have been to the library this summer and I always left my house before going there with the intention of asking the librarians if they need any help with anything. However, each time I step through the doors, I run straight to the computers (or to the graphic novels section) and procrastinate all my time away, telling myself that it's okay for me to "take a break". That mantra has been what I've been living by since I finished one-fourth of the summer homework I was given from my future teacher.
It's strange how just a few weeks ago I was the anxiety-ridden, stressed out teenager I usually am. Yet when summer started, I just got all chill and crap. But everything feels great! I love not having to worry about how I'm going to finish an essay on the same night of a performance or a math final or anything else that is school related. I FEEL FREE! But I can't help feeling guilty because I know that in a few weeks, I will regret the freedom I have been giving myself because school starts NEXT MONTH and I haven't worked on much of my homework, like I said before. I know that everything will start to catch up with me and I can't bear to think about the consequences I'll suffer if I don't stop milling around...
Anyway, let's speak on the brighter side of the things I have done this summer:
I finished 3 books: The Crucible by Arthur Miller (school reading), The Giver by Lois Lowry, and Maus I & II by Art Speigleman.
To you avid book readers out there, this might not seem like much, but to me it's a lot. I don't usually spend a lot of time reading books because I never give myself time to do so. It feels really good and is especially self-gratifying when I finish a book because I am a scatterbrain (I've mentioned this before), so you know that I can't stick with one thing for a long time. Luckily, I forced myself to stick to one thing while reading these books and I realized that by doing so, I got a lot more out of than I usually do from most books.
Also, I want to say that my reading style is different. I'll pick up a book and power read the first few chapters and then put it down for a few days to ponder its significance and depth (or to just use the computer and play video games). Then I'll pick it back up and read non-stop for a while and repeat the aforementioned step. I am starting to get through most things that way...
Anyway, the books I read were really, really good. They were very thought-provoking, and inspiring. They made me think out some things and learn some things that I have never before imagined, thus I've obtained a slightly different eye to the way some things are in my life. One message I got from The Giver was that sometimes things cannot be changed and some things that may seem bad to one person is really just for the better and it sucks to know that nothing can be done to make it better. That's really the plot of the story (didn't I tell you I was bad at extracting themes from literature?) but that's some of what I got from it.
What I also did over this summer was buy (and download) some new books! I've been really into classics lately so I bought some good books, such as The Scarlet Letter, The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn and Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde (I'm not really looking forward to that last one).
I've downloaded some cool books such as: The Unsocial Socialist. This one has gotten some bad reviews, but I don't have much to say about the book yet because I have only read a few pages of it! However, I am not always the type of person who has a strong opinion about things-- which is why I will not join Debate Club at my school. I am an easily swayed person too, but I think reading more has been shaping me into a person with a few opinions like I mentioned the books before.
I'll come back later to talk about the other books I downloaded. Thanks for reading!
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